vale[ blog ] diary of the last hollow soul

Morning, was lazy to do anything. Just the coffee and the breakfast (the first load of coffee is gone, i used now the second half, and it tastes a lot better), and rush off to school. I had lunch at the cafeteria (i hate this word, i have a totally different meaning associated with it), some kind of strange noodles, but it was really good and refreshing. Though didn't really wake me up. We practised one minute speech with the others from class for the exam, and i really enjoyed it. For some reason our improvised random topics seemed to be more interesting and easier to talk about than most of the previous ones.
I was dead tired on the third lesson, almost really fell asleep (really close). I very much hope the teachers are not offended by this habit (too much), since i usually pay attention. I had guitar lesson as well, then i was so hungry i decided to make something real to eat. Potatoes, with cheese, one egg and yoghurt. For spice salt, oregano and pepper. It ended up good, unexpectedly, because it really seemed totally burnt. Then i wrote about a city i really like (in japanese) (Paris). Troublesome. But at least nothing else important to study for tomorrow.

First, that Little engine that could or something like that. I don't know that story, but the words can and could always remind me of it. The reason is that when i was heavily into learning loads of new kanji in april (a habit i since gave up), in the Heisig (pdf) book that Robert gave me was one: 可 that according to there had the meaning can (as in be able to) (though that book gives no readings so i had to browse the unicode charactertable to write it now), and the example story to remember it has something about a little engine that could. I could remember it only because it didn't make any sense to me. So instead of that little engine it was the kanji with that strange steamtrain story for me.
Yesterday luckily by lunchtime my stove was working all right so i could make my meal without trouble. I also realised i have nice corn-pea-carrot mix in the freezer, so i put that in the rice as well. Makes it a lot more filling. In the afternoon we had a tanabata party, we talked a lot and did origami. I really like the story for that day. Or rather the whole day like in itself, the feeling. The wishes (i think mine was the shortest)…

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I'm happy. Simply and greatly happy. Today i did most of the stuff i really like, and that feels great. I woke up at noon. Because we were partying late till night, as i already wrote about that. Then i had table tennis training, which was good, i got my uniform, lost five games to Anthony in a row (his serves are simply crazy, at least until you figure out that it just seems to be crazy), then went with the club people to eat, ended up Sankichi (i haven't eaten a bento in like two months or so), and then the terrace of the cafeteria. We were talking a lot, and i've got my first mosquito bites as well (probably because the yesterday rain, i've never seen or felt any of those here until now), then i got back to my room, practised some songs on the guitar (Nirvana's Come as you are and Iron Maiden's Fear of the dark and naturally Jingle bells) then picked up my stuff and the people as well for a fruit party. Since yesterday was a partyish party, i figured not many people would be in for another party tonight, so i picked the fruits i bought i Seiyu and it ended up great and fun. (Alcoholic melon was especially funny (funny melon), at least the others said it tasted like alcohol (i couldn't feel that), probably because it wasn't in the fridge, just where i keep my potatoes as well.) Then i watched the second new episode of the Haruhi series (check on Youtube), which was simply put great, i really want my summer vacation to have all that stuff. Then, i just realised that the third episode is out already as well, so i'm downloading. Talked with a friend, and now i think i'll just take a shower and sleep. Oh, and happy birthday to the US, at least it was still its birthday here when i started typing this post. Tomorrow (today) i'll have to study a lot. Oh, and ska-ish music feels great now.

My body went crazy, apparently. It's one thing that i constantly feel a tension inside that is possibly anxiousness, just i don't know its reason. I've never been anxious before even worse exams than that i'm facing in a week, nor do i consider this exam something difficult. Since it's all spread over a week, i have time to study everything needed. Not grave, but still i couldn't sleep last night, and that's annoying. I got to bed around one… And i could feel my pulse speeding up instantly, though before that my brain was totally numb. After like ten minutes i decided that if i can't sleep i'll take the advice of one of the kaiwa: if you can't sleep try reading something boring, and it'll work. Since in the afternoon i constantly fell asleep over the grammar book, i started reading that, and indeed, my next memory is waking up in the morning (though i could have been kidnapped by the aliens to make a chair out of me (Amorf Ördögök - Asztalos ufók (video) reference), but then they also brainwashed me). Also, i made a coffee for myself in lunchtime, but forgot to drink it—yet my body reacted as if i drank it. Scary really, when you feel the effects of the coffee and then upon arriving home you realise that it's still all there on the stove…