In the afternoon i read an article written by a friend about other people blogging about blogging. This way now i’m blogging about at first about someone who blogged about someone else blogging about how much they dislike blogging, and also about simply blogging and reasons. I promise, i won’t write such confusing sentences anymore in this post.

Why are people blogging? There are many reasons said, but i can’t at all if one of them is true or not. Some claim to blog solely for the purpose of showing off, as a “materialization” of their exhibitionism, some others use their blogs as diaries, and don’t care about who and why reads it, some just follow the trends, some blog because they are told to or have to, or just want to so to charm someone, some don’t even know the reason why, they just like doing it. Well i think that i’m in this latest group, since i have no idea how come the idea to start that blog almost three years ago on Blogger, but since then, more or less continously i’m writing this blog, with more or less success. I really never cared a bit about comments (though i seem to now), since no one really ever cared about what i was writing either, at least for the first years. Or well (Orwell? Is this some unintentional summon to the spirit of the great writer, and the atmosphere of his depressing, negative utopias? Am i now going to write about how the Big Brother watches us, even while blogging? How we have no privacy anymore, if we write about our innermost feelings and private life on a public space like the internet?), so or weel, at least no one really told me that they read my stuff (maybe only one, for whose support i’m really grateful, those occasional “I’m still here reading your writings” comments felt really good), so i only had to get the energy to write and it was out, whenever and however i wanted. I’m still blogging so, since i’m no way having an overdose of comments, but i don’t care, i don’t write for others to comment on my stuff (only sometimes), i write because i feel like: maybe because i just have something i must write about, maybe because i have a slight exhibitionism in my veins making me write, maybe i’d found something interesting i really want to share with others, or just write something to act fitting with my know-it-all nature, like this post. Whatever is the reason, i think all can agree that blogging is good. I mean, it feels good. I really love writing these posts, maybe i feel disappointed a bit when my readers comment on posts i don’t feel so valuable, while not saying anything on stuff i really meant to wake thoughts and emotions with, and even a slight “Wow this is great” kind of spam comment would raise my spirit for a day at least. But any way, writing a blog post is generally fun. I enjoy writing, that’s one of the main reasons i’m here, and why i’m writing elsewhere too. Rest assured, the stuff you get here are not neccessarily my best, though i really love some of these pieces. No, i think “love” is not the right phrase, since i don’t care much about them, but most of those i value high are, to borrow the phrase from Iron Maiden, “piece of mind”, something that really is me. Maybe that’s why it feels bad when they are ignored–in fact i am ignored along with them. Not as if i’m complaining, since as the sidebar stats show, i’ve got a nice bunch of comments over these years, and i’m really grateful for them.

As of the programming part of it, i think it’s just natural that after trying out 3rd party blog engines like Blogger, LiveJournal and b2evolution, and getting deeper into coding in PHP, i wanted to develop myself a blog engine, possibly the best one ever. Naturally the great ambitions always failed, as i never got any further as the basic front-end services and post adding-editing for the admin area. Maybe when i start writing the next one according to the plans i designed yesterday evening, i could get to a really final version, with everything i want to include. Just some details: two versions, a private and a provider one are planned, only differing in that while the private one could run only one blog, the provider one is a complete blogging system, multi-blog and community support and everything. To avoid confusion, i’ll be working on the provider one first. Why am i doing this? Because it’s challanging, and also it helps me to get more experience and also knowledge in web scripting, and also because since i want to use my own engine, i want to do myself the best possible one.

Sometimes it would be interesting to see how long it took to write a blog post. I think i’ll implement such a thing in a few moments, because for example, i’ve been writing this post for a nice long while now. Maybe you’d be shocked to see how long it takes to give life to a writing like this.